Self As Antidote

(Disembodied Terror/ Magical Happenings and Self As Antidote- Consuming the Snake)

Dreamtime Feb 28, 2009

I am asleep and can hear B outside in conflict with a big mob of young people who are drinking
and making noise and being destructive. I get up and look out the window, and eventually go
downstairs. They have been fighting and hassling. I open the back door and say ‘Thats it’ really angry,
and I throw and stone into their crowd in the street and it hits someone, but they see me close the door
and then know who it is that has thrown it. I run upstairs, suddenly afraid of what they will do. B
has gone somewhere and I am alone in the house with Oisin and I feel insecure and unsafe. I see
someone climbing on the wall to get into the house. I look out the window and then someone throws
something in ….they are targeting the house and me now. The next thing I know I am in the bed sleeping
next to Oisin, and I feel a presence….unseen….and I am terrified. It is sucking me down the bed toward
an invisible hole or something. I can feel the energy and palpable terror as I try to fight the pull. I am
afraid for Oisin too. It seems to suck me to the door/wall and I know I am powerless in relation to this
immense energy, whatever/whoever it is.
At some point I am telling B about the dream of the kids and the terror, as if I have woken up.
Then I am in a car with a man who I have met and feel in sync with …he is older and somewhat familiar. He seems to belong to some group that I have befriended. B and I are at odds and he has
pretty much dissed everything I tell him matters to me. I feel so angry and I want to get away, so I go
with the man. There is something about a girl, familiar either in Waking Life or in Dream, and we both
somehow come to realize with are on the same ‘Mission’. The man and I are supposed to eat dinner with her and her parents but something happens and we are really late. When we turn up, with Oisin, Oisin
is really wired and running around and I feel self-conscious and that I am offending her parents
because they seem quite ‘proper’. He walks right off a table at one point while I half-catch him before
he hits the floor in such a ways that it makes it look like no big deal. The girl and I are in in her room
then, but we leave to meet the man at a pub or somewhere. We sit down at a table with some people
There is a blonde girl who arouses my rage and I punch her and get into a spat. We are waiting for the
owners of the place to leave with us. Then I am with the girl again, in her room, and there is an
assortment of objects on a table. We are trying to do something shamanistic, and I turn into a Bat and
she is something else. It has to do with the objects on the table. I fly out, in a bat-like manner,
conscious of the quick flapping motion of my wings. It is hard to remain in flight however. We feel
compelled to figure out or do something that has spiritual/ magical undertones and involves the girls
parents too. There is a scene where I am hanging from a ledge in water or some other substance and
asking for help up…saying “please help me!”. There is one scene where I am with Oisin and we are
walking and I see a timber rattlesnake…a small fat one …and I run over to protect him. I end up
grabbing it and have it in my hands. I feel I must consume it for some reason. As I am holding it I bite
down on its belly and it lets out a loud squeal, then I crush its head in my fingers and take a bite out of
it. It has a magical feel to it. There is another rattlesnake that seems to jump and bite Oisin in the face but we dont pay any attention … It is as if I consumed the snake in order to use it as an Antidote to any potential harm it could bring to Oisin. I end up describing the experiences to the girls parents. They are amazed.

Very intense.