It No longer Matters

He has come for me…. 

Pursuing for aeons 
     I seem to know…. 
I try running 
          down the road 
                but go back, 
start to climb 
down 
the side 
of the rocks
 on the cliff side, 
figure I can crawl up under 
and hide…. 

Then i Let Go… 

in Exhaustion …. 

Existentially weary 
from lifetimes of running 
and hiding 
and trying 
to escape pursuit…. 

I turn 
    and slowly walk 
              back up the road, 

straight into the Dark Man, 
who is on my trail. 

This takes him Off Guard. 

I calmly walk out into the road, 
it’s a highWay, 
I lay 
face down 
and Surrender.

He puts the Gun to my Head…. 
I can feel the cold barrel. 
But I am not afraid. 
I ReMember Now, 
how many times I’ve 
L e t.  G o.  
 d. i. s. s. o. l. v. e. d. 
 into the other Side, 
left SeemingSelf behind. 

It’s really not painful…. 

I smile….

I wonder where I will  Wake  Up  Next. 

He pulls the gun away 
and runs off 
for a moment, 
as if suddenly unsure what to do. 

I don’t move. 

I’ve already let go, 
surrendered, 
I’m Ready. 

Take me. 

He comes back, 
attempts
 in various ways 
to pull the trigger, 
to finish the job. 
Cars are coming. 
He is fretting. 
He wanders away again. 
Comes back. 

I don’t move. 

I feel a Sense of calm 
and Freedom
 I have known 
over 
    and 
        over again, 
and wonder why it takes so long Each time To just Let go.

Eventually 
he pulls me up 
out of the road. 

It No Longer matters
One
Way
Or
The
Other

Dreamtime 11-2-21