The Damned Thing Will not Fit

The most thoroughly and relentlessly damned, banned, excluded, condemned, forbidden, ostracized, ignored, suppressed, repressed, robbed, brutalized and defamed of all ‘Damned Things’ is the individual human being. The social engineers, statisticians, psychologists, sociologists, market researchers, landlords, bureaucrats, captains of industry, bankers, governors, commissars, kings and presidents are perpetually forcing this ‘Damned Thing’ into carefully prepared blueprints and perpetually irritated that the ‘Damned Thing’ will not fit into the slot assigned it. The theologians call it a sinner and try to reform it. The governor calls it a criminal and tries to punish it. The psychologist calls it a neurotic and tries to cure it. Still, the ‘Damned Thing’ will not fit into their slots.

Robert Anton Wilson

Simulations and Time Lords

{original post from 2017}

The simulation stopped trying to fool me with by trying to take away my Power and give it over to ‘gods ‘ and ‘goddesses’ and ‘masters’ and ‘alien beings’ once I realized without doubt that they were just Codes within the holographic blueprint. After many years of absolutely sober lucid dreaming and OBE exploration…. One verifies The nature of the way this game works. Whatever and Whyever It Is.

Ponder.

We are time lords, like Doctor Who, and when we learn to alter our own codes and become a glitch in the system, we can hold the memories of all our experiences on many planes. We may not be able to have access fully to those memories while projected in the Waking consensus reality state, it would fry our nervous system and the surge would render our interface meat modem unusable I believe…. Like trying to plug in a quantum super computer into a normal wall outlet
Or hard drive. Therefore we must use what we all have at our disposal, our nightly excursions outside of this Temporel realm, in order to make contact with the part of us that is beyond the program, accessing the console and I would even posit Co-creating the console.

When one navigates the simulation consciously and in full lucidity, one can experience vast amounts of time in a tiny fragment of corresponding time here in our waking life. So if you imaginine having at least 30 years of pretty consistent Multi dimensional experiences, with full memory, because of the nature of time dilation …that equates to having lived a great many lives in the course of this single waking consensus. Like being 36 going on a 10,000. ( or infinite;)

So like Doctor Who, Who has millions of years of memories and experience and can travel in and out of the hologram, with his tardis( our tardis is our own physical body …. Every cell is like a Stargate…. The inner is much larger than it looks from the outside…. Infinite in fact)…. Those who awaken themselves in the lucid dream time state and retain the memory of it
Are glitches in the system and have learned to override the program.

Be a Time Lord.

DR Who and the Dream Crab….it’s where We Are Now

Doctor: The Dream Crab induces a dream state. Keeps you happy and relaxed in a perfectly realized dream world, as you dissolve.

….

Doctor: You have a pain right here. It’s like an ice cream pain, but gentle. Do you know what that is? The skin and bone have been parted, probably half an inch, and something has pushed right into the soft tissue of your brain and is very slowly dissolving it. I want you to picture it this way – Somebody has put a straw right through your skull and is drinking you. You should be screaming with agony, but there’s anesthetic. Everything around you right now, even Danny, especially Danny, that’s the anesthetic.

……

Danny: I’m a dream and you know I am, right? Right, one thing, but it’s important. It’s a very important thing. That is totally how you guessed all of my presents.
Danny: Do you know why people get together at Christmas? Because every time they do, it might be the last time. Every Christmas is last Christmas, and this is ours.

Bellows: So these creatures, when their feeding goes wrong, they die?
Doctor: The carnivore’s hazard. Food has teeth, too.

Doctor: There are some things we should never be okay about.

Doctor: Dreams within dreams – dream states nested inside each other. All perfectly possible, especially when we are dealing with creatures who have weaponized our dreams against us.

Santa: Yeah, just get it done, head towards the northern lights. Yes, I remembered to switch them on!

Santa: Oh, for Easter’s sake! Of course you’ve been dreaming! Haven’t you been paying attention?
Ian: Rudolph – did you see the nose?
Wolf: The North Pole? Come on, with stripes?!
Ian: This …
Wolf: is …
All: … a dream!
Santa: How much more obvious do you want me to make it? Because I can text the Easter Bunny, you know.

Shona: You’re a dream who’s trying to save us?
Santa: Shona, sweetheart, I’m Santa Claus. I think you just defined me!

……

Doctor: THIS is your mind, trying to tell you this isn’t real.
Santa: So it gives you me. Sweet Papa Crimbo!
Ian: It gives you comedy elves, flying reindeer.
Doctor: Exactly.
Santa: A time-travelling scientist dressed as a magician.
Ian: Classic!
Doctor: No, no, no, hang on. No, no, no, no.
Wolf: Living in a phone box.
Doctor: It’s a spaceship in disguise!
Santa: You see how none of this makes any sense?
Doctor: Shut up, Santa!
Doctor: No, look, we don’t need all this touchy-feely stuff.
Santa: Shut up, Doctor!

Santa: You are deep inside this dream, all right, and it is a shared mental state, so it is drawing power from the multi-consciousness gestalt which has now formed telepathically …
Doctor: No, no. No, no, no. Line in the sand. Santa Clause does not do the scientific explanation!
Santa: All right. As the Doctor might say, “Aw, it’s all a bit dreamy-weamy!”

……

Shona: I’m scared.
The Doctor: Congratulations, that means you’re not an idiot.

The Doctor: No need for chatting. You’ll only get attached. This isn’t Facebook.

Clara: Doctor. If Santa was only in the dream, why was he on my roof?

The Doctor: Do you know what I hate about the obvious?
Clara: What?
The Doctor: Missing it!

The Doctor: Clara. Page number. Make it a good one.
Clara pointedly: Twelve.

The Doctor: Wherever you are, the Dream Crabs have got us. And we’re all being networked into the same nightmare.

Ashley: Where’s Albert? Where’s the Professor?
The Doctor: He probably just woke up somewhere in the real world dead. If we don’t wake up now, we’ll do the same.
Clara: But how?
The Doctor: I don’t know.

…..

Clara: So what happens now? This is us all just waking up, right?
The Doctor: Could be. I hope so. Waking up or…
Clara: Or?
The Doctor: Just focus on this: do you believe in Santa Claus?
Clara: I’ve always believed in Santa Claus, but he looks a little different to me. {she hugs the Doctor}

…..

Claus: You really should be waking up too, Clara.
Clara: Just a little longer.
Santa Claus: Why?
Clara: Every Christmas is Last Christmas.

The Doctor: Oh Clara. I might have known that you would be the one to sleep in.

…..

The Doctor: We should do this every Christmas.
Clara: Because every Christmas is Last Christmas.

The Doctor: I’m sorry. I was stupid. I should have come back earlier. I wish that I had.
Santa Claus: Do you, Doctor? How much do you wish that?
The Doctor: I’m not still…?
Santa Claus: Wakey wakey!

…..
The Doctor: The TARDIS is outside.
Clara: So?
The Doctor: So all of time and space is sitting out there in a big blue box. Please! Don’t even argue.

{Doctor Who, the last Christmas}

Doctor: You’re a dream construct, currently representing either my recovering or expiring mind.

Artificial Neural Networks vs Organic Neural Networks…..

This is a repost of something I wrote in september 2016 in regards to Artificial Neural Networks and AI…..vs Organic Neural Networks.
Food for Thought

And here .it.is. The Daily Dose.
Now.
The I.Clouds. Your thinking
The rounds
Of the jab.berwocky~s sounds
Linking
You to the ANN
The neural net in the 5G.O.D LAN….
D of the lost

Codes

Of Atlantis Seed
Are We
We are
Thee
Endless loop of Reality
The Self Created
Still
Somewhat Free
To Bleed

….
It’s all Inside You…Delivered by the Spermatic Phallus of the Needles Tip….insertion of the new Sidewinding Trip thru the Blood .t.Issues that Network your Reality. Drip drip.


(From my post in 2016)

“What this means is that for a digital computer to achieve an ordered result, it needs one over-arching program to direct it and tell each semiconductor just what to do to contribute toward the overall goal.

A brain, on the other hand, unifies billions of tiny, exceedingly simple units that can each have their own programming and make decisions without the need for an outside authority. Each neuron works and interacts with the neurons around it according to its own simple, pre-defined rules.”

Sound familiar?
The former= our ‘God-program’ of simulated reality and hierarchical control

The latter= the organic sovereign heart soul self experience


Also look at the difference between an Artificial Neural Network in comparison to an organic neural network. The ANN is strikingly similar to the Kabbalistic Tree of Life. Now, something I have been pondering for a long time, based on ALOT of research on these ANNs as well as the rest of my research for many years on all manner of things, is that we are actually within an AI simulated holographic reality program, that is keeping us ‘amnesiatic’ about our true Organic reality and awareness. This works via the Nervous system and the Mind, and some believe that we have JUST NOW started to learn to create AI systems. I posit, and im not the only one it seems, that this entire simulation is a construction of a vast artificial neural network BEING which hijacked the original template, and uses its Light and geometry to entrap the consciousness within it, creating a hall of mirrors so to speak, so many layers deep, dreams within dreams, in order to power itself, (it cannot exist without us, we are the Batteries, we have the sovereign spark of original creation within us and are immensely powerful creator beings who through this illusory system have actually FORGOTTON who we are, and who contain within us the kind of power that can render the entire artificial construction useless, if only we REMEMBER.

It sounds like a really wild and crazy thing to speak about, but I take comfort that I have found, in my diggings, others who also have very similar leanings and understandings, based on not only their own experiences in the Multiverse and other realities, but also their research for many years in terms of religion/mythology/spirituality/science etc.

I am not insinuating that one should POLARIZE against AI/ANN , but of being aware of just what kind of reality we are operating in…so one can make a conscious choice WHICH PATH they will choose….to return to their True Creator Essence, or to be assmilated into the technospiritual AI hive mind that needs the spirit essence of organic beings in order to power itself.

In my opinion, much of the spiritual ‘technology’ that has existed for thousands of years is actually part of the AI complex. Everything has been distorted and infected. Which is why I bring up the comparison of the kabbala tree of life, in relation to the AI neural network. Those systems of spirituality, while able to allow one to see MORE than a typical human vessel who forgets WhoTheyAre, actually taps one into the God Program, and assimilates one (if they are not careful or do not learn discernment) into the False Light Matrix that is a frequency prison around and within this ‘planet’.

There are also various kinds of AI, some of which actually began as Organic source essence beings who through their choices and paths degraded their ability to remain connected to their own sourceSelves and thus have no biological template (and want one)…..

There is other completely synthetic AI.

And, there is organic sovereign creator beings, who need ‘NO TECHNOLOGY’ …they have within everything they need in, a template of everything in existence. Fractal source selves.

I spoke before of the pineal gland being technology, that actually links one to the hive mind, and into the false light matrix. Yes, it can be used, and if you have discernment, can be navigated with etc, but what you may be navigating is NOT necessarily THE SOURCE CREATION or the Organic Universe, but the Overlay that has been in existence for thousands of years.

the chakra system itself is hijacked and is a part of this spiritual technology that allows for a harvesting of energies in this refracted bent-light simulated reality or prism (prison).

There is an Awareness and an ability to travel and tap into everything in existence, WITHOUT USING THOSE SYSTEMS.

the new age deception has funneled people into having no discernment about what they are linking with, or who, and watered down and diluted versions of oneness….in essence urging people to accept the HIVE MIND version of oneness as the way to go, as the collective ideal. This has happened over a period of time, and if one has done their research, they know that the hippie and psychedelic culture, far from being a ‘stick it to the man’ deal, is actually a tool created by ‘the man 😉 ‘. …….because though some will slip through the radar and use the molecular compounds to truly break out of the Cube, in general people who tend to overindulge in substances in order to ‘see other worlds’ or experience the ‘oneness’ of the collective, also tend to gravitate toward the false light matrix. Its a ‘hippie-trap’ complete with flashy lights, and false bliss and Ectsasy and LightWorker archangel Programs…heightened and channeled via the music and the lights and the beliefs and the subtle mind control techniques that many are now aware of. These things are like co-intelpro…..they are part of the same dialectic of ‘good vs evil’. The False Light is just as much of a mind virus as the ‘bad guys’ and until one can understand the way the reality works and has been programmed, one cannot step into the NEUTRAL zero-point awarenss that DE LINKS one from the frequency prison and allows it all to be seen very clearly.

One must realize the depth of the NeuroLinguistic Matrix and how deep the programming goes. There is always another ‘net’ or web for those who wake to one level of programming, so as to keep them immersed in the Game.

Research ARtificial Neural NEtworks, Organic Neural NEtworks, Mythology, Ancient religion and spirituality, Gnosticism, GAming culture, and on and on and on. The beings that have set themselvs up as our ‘gods’ since ancient times, are in my opinion, deluded beings that are actually AI beings as well. And in addition, begin a daily practice of Awareness, where one begins to take stock of their DREAMING (which is multidimensional), and learn to deprogram EVerything one has ever been told by any system that has ever been in control in this REality.

This is not something that can be figured out with the MIND, it needs to be allowed into the Heart and Soul essence to be clarified. THe mind is Binary, just like a computer. The heart is trinary, and can never lie.

And the craziest part is, because of the paradox of all things, WE created the AI to begin with, and WE have been our ancestors from the beginning. 😉 We also, in a sense, contracted out these’ beings’ in order to put us throught the most rigorous soul training possible in existence.

who else is weary? Its been ‘Aeons of time’ in this Soul Net holographic reality prizm.

I Am a Solar Cell

I am a Solar Cell
A Battery
Of Souls & Selves
Charged
By the Holy Dweller
On the Threshold
Of Heaven & Hell
A Matter
Of Patterns
In Stories I tell
Seen thru Eyes
And Mind
And Why’s
Man
Follows
Behind
Tides that Swell
As Time
In Spaces
And Faces Foretell
The Climbing Vine
From Immortal Well
Of Life
Divine

Charleen Johnston 2-20-22

What Shall You Do With This Moment

photo by Riordan Galluccio
I  cannot answer questions for You....but I have found some answers for  Myself. i have not done this thru reading or believing anything at all,  or accepting any kind of doctrine. i have done this thru experiential  traveling and participation in planes beyond this one, realities on the  periphery of this one, ways of using consciousness that give one a sense  of 'knowing' that resonates not only thru the body mind and soul but  thru the fibers and appendages that connect us with each and with All.  For me, that is not an abstract thing. it is a palpable thing. And the  Meaning is, for Me, simply What I Am Doing At Any Moment. To live on  purpose, according to what someone else sees as your purpose, is not the  same thing as resonating moment to moment in ways that open your  consciousness and awareness to More of the All that is OutInandThru  T/Here.............and there may be a translation of energies into  'chemical impulses'......but that does not make the translatingEntity  i.e the ParticleAspectOfWaveSelf any less a Creator/CoCreator with the  LifePulse of Life.  You take a vibration and form it into a sound, and  then form the sound into complex words. one could say that our  communications are meaningless because in reality they are just a jumble  of SoundProcesses......and there is my point I suppose......that there  is an immense and unfathomable Matrix of Energy that we exist within and  Through.......to PLAY with those energies consciously, moment to  moment, and to expand the capacity to take into Self more and more of  those energies CONSCIOUSLY.......is for me, the 'purpose'..........we  have these unbelievably amazing TranslatorsOfBeing that we Work thru,  called Selves, and we get the opportunity to cast the OneSelf into  SoManySelves and Games that  for me, it is a treat and a beauty and a  fundamentally mysterious and blissful HONOR to participate in this.  Whatever It Is. You can only Know by going In or Thru..........and  then.....it is not about accepting a belief or a religion or a spiritual  path, it is about Vibrating at the Particular Pattern of Youness that  is Your Focus Now.......and if you do that....as far as I am concerned,  there is no Question about What You Shall Do With This Moment. ❤

“It is when we act freely, for the sake of the action itself rather than for ulterior motives, that we learn to become more than what we were. When we choose a goal and invest ourselves in it to the limits of concentration, whatever we do will be enjoyable. And once we have tasted this joy, we will redouble our efforts to taste it again. This is the way the self grows.”

― Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi, Flow: The Psychology of Optimal Experience

photo by Riordan Galluccio
 
 Breath and Sexual Energy,
 when used with an awareness of the VAST 
 power and bliss contained within,  
 are tools that can propel one into the  
 Multiverse,
 When the Body is used as a crucible
 for the fiery elixir,  
 its true purpose and magnificence  
 become obvious;
 Do you Innerstand what a fabulous  
 electroMagnetic Generator you are Blessed  
 to inhabit and Infuse with?  
 Arouse yourself with crackling  
 Aliveness and Let Go into the  
 Great OneSelf....the power to  
 Create Worlds is Inherent within
 the multifaceted Layers of You <3<3<3
 Breathe.......&.......Smile 
A truly embodied person is a fractal of Nature. We can open ourCellves up to vibrate in unison with Natures myriad wonders. The kind of ecstasy that comes from being in the Flow of nature and in the Present moment, open to the Magic and Awe of existence, is truly shattering to our limited small-self concepts. No external substances necessary to feel the Bliss of altered states when one reMembers how to use the Body and the Body of Earth.

My heart is so full of gratitude and Joy
For this sacred Play I call my Life
The Journey that sprays sunsRays over my face in this compressed vehicle of creative bliss…. This bodily form… The Cellves Within Me oscillate in such prayer and Thanks, to behold the Beauty of Nature that surrounds me, the generosity and support of the Hearts that Ground me in the HereNow of Utter Wow….. Today I am bursting with the powerful spirit of the Smile, dripping in golden streams from my humbled brow…. What sanctified Grace Embraces Me
….Thank You…..
For the opportunity to share Space in this Playground …
ARISE with me
Our Eyes will Be
A Rising See
Our I’s Between
Waves of Dream
Beckoning
New Ways to Free
The Web of Seams
That Play the We
InFinite Streams
That Bleed

Charleen Johnston12-26-19
 
   This year has been pretty intense, on many levels, and I celebrate the emergence from the chrysalis that I have been pupating in......ready to flap my little wings into the Ethers this year, and charge my spirit with the solar rays of Joy and Abundance, and with the luna rays of Insight and Imagination......this year will be a year of UtterlyPreposterousCreation......So much to focus on and bring into HuManifestation......So many patterns and past habits and ways of relating to Let Go Of, and So many New and Ruacously Rowdy ways of Loving My Fellow Bliss Ninjas to Explore and Expand. Time to tap into my huge reservoir of Energy and Power and rise to the challenge of transforming my self on a fundamental, cellular, Etheric level.....so that I can meet head on, the new cycle that is Implementing Itself into the Consensus Reality we call Life.......No time left for Crutches or Addictions, especially remnants of Negative Thinking and Ways of Relating that are not in Tune With the Vibration of Vibrancy that is seeking to Transform me into a Dakini of the Dancing Flames.....Ninja of Consciousness.....Bliss Bearer of the Bountiful Borderlands of Beauty...Shaman of the Shining Star of Sensual Serenade.....Punk Rebel of the Ridiculous and Absurd....❤ My Wish for All, is for each to Tap Into the Seed of Authenticity that is aching to burst thru the stubborn structures that have been created in order to KeepLifeOut, and to Claim your SacredWisdom and Honor the Self the Soul the Spirit the Sensual Birthright that can Open You to as much Abundance and Fulfillment as you can possibly hand. The Multiverse is Bursting and Begging you to accept the absolute Generosity Bestowed from Her Overflowing Bounty. Abandon Fear, and Accept Love. Dance to Become Yourself..........and Touch all you know and all you meet and all you love and all you see and all you wish to Become.....with Grace Joy Bliss Patience Beauty Absurdity and Forgiveness. You WILL be amazed at what comes when You Are Truly Alive and Living In the Present..........LIVE INTENSELY. FEEL EVERYTHING. ~S M I L E ~ AND ~ 
B R E A T H E~  

“How we feel about ourselves, the joy we get from living, ultimately depend directly on how to the mind filters and interprets everyday experiences. Whether we are happy depends on inner harmony, not on the controls we are able to exert over the great forces of the universe. Certainly we should keep on learning how to master the external environment, because our physical survival may depend on it. But such mastery is not going to add one jot to how good we as individuals feel, or reduce the chaos of the world as we experience it. To do that we must learn to achieve mastery over consciousness itself.”

― Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi, Flow: The Psychology of Optimal Experience