Died Of Consumption

it’s called a news FEED for a reason, 
You are being force fed a juicy stew
Of engineered β€˜news’ and brewed unTruths
Because the newcAge zoo runs on Loosh

But I don’t Eat
From the hand that serves
Genetically Modified Urges
And emotional purges

I just chuckle
An 8 second scroll unrolls
Image after image
Meant to unFold
Inside the neural nest

Keep eating. Yum yum.
At this Point in the Game
Every single thing you react to
Was baked in an artificial maze
To Daze your neural pathways.

The script
Is ripping your fiLes
Compressed aggression
Pretending to Lifes
Sudden
Happenings.

It’s a PotLuck

Don’t you know

(Gravestones read
β€œDied of Consumption”)

Or

β€œGave Too Many Fucks
About Engineered
ShitShows”

2-26-25

In Prisms I See Your Face

In Prisms
I see your face
plastered around me
you are here
beside me
in essence.
And should I fall,
would I be gathered in
by your gentle hands?
Or would I crash
fatally
into the cold
barren ground?
I focus in on you
I see past the flesh
and I know
you are there.
I dreamed of you
Once.
I begged for you-
and you came
Alive
in my world.

October 1999

Your World

Your World


I float through your world
weightlessly
spinning around and around and
around again
It took me so long to find this place
and I am now locked in
I have broken down your atmosphere
desecrating your perfect air
in attempt to escape from here
But your walls do not fall down.
Your eyes are oceans of purest blue
I swim and swim and swim
in hopes of getting through
to you.
But your skies are painted dark
and your storm sucks me in
and now I'm drowning once more
sinking to your ocean floor
my body engulfed by your unforgivable sin.
Your lips part like the red sea
beckoning me
promising to fulfill my reveries
your voice is transparent
your message is clear
I crawl inside your crystalline tear
urging you to join me
as I slip down your cheek smoothly, calmly
hiding from my only fear.
Your aura attracts me
distracts me
makes me think that you are free-
just an orb of energy
to gather me in and suck me dry
so that you can watch the world float by
in your lonely, barren eternity.

10-25-1999

Creativity

Art by me 2005 pen/ink watercolor 18X36”
πŸ”₯It is the one who accepts commitment who is strong. The true commitment is the artistic one. This is why artists are so often attacked. They are attacked for their morals, for their ideas – even for their work. Yet their essence – their commitment – is the secret which is unassailable. The true artist knows that creativity is its own reward. Ordinary people fear commitment, you see. Ordinary people fear creativity. They know that if they allow that seething cauldron of yellow liquid to boil over within themselves, then their whole lives will be changed. People fear change. People do not wish to be creative and artistic in any real sense. They wish to decorate, perhaps, and to make things around themselves pleasant – but this has little to do with creativity. … All spiritual paths should be creative. Creativity is involved with sacrifice. That stew of yellow liquid which boils in everyone is a sacrificial broth …πŸ”₯

~Mark Hedsel

Alphabet Soup

β€œSon, it’s just like being force-fed Alphabet Soup…. The cute little letters hide the poison for ingestation…making the toxins more palatable so fresh suggestible minds will consume without discernment. 

ABC CIA FBI WHO DHS DOE FEMA EPA VA HUD DOJ CDC NBC FOX……foxy little tricksters hiding in sticky linguistic ballistics….

You see, these fake organizations proliferate the very thing they claim to assuage……but the people have been gorging on the feast for so long, they will defend them with their very life. It’s called Stockholm syndrome. We now live in a time in which almost every single person alive had been thru the Collective MK Iktra Mind Control Ptogram and we can now see the results of the intense campaign to own the inner real estate of the Consciousness of every human being….”

Cue the Disney Music…………….. as the projector screen begins to light up

β€œKeep your eyes on That One.,,,
And Anticipate”

Linguistic Trickster books!

I am very excited to be making great headway into this project that has been haunting me for a very long time. I have volumes 1 ,2 , and 3 available on Amazon and volume 4 is being formatted and edited now. I’ve spent so much time lately in ocd pursuit of completing up to the 6 volumes from January 2025 back to 1996 of my β€˜dreaming back’ narrative of lifetimes writing . The next three volumes contain more writing by far than these three, as I wrote profusely during those years ( trying to stay sane 🧐)

Amazon links

https://a.co/d/1p8fDWy

https://a.co/d/fNIh62k

https://a.co/d/8D1A8Yn

I’ve done almost nothing else lately, so many hours into these just in the formatting and editing and rereading and all the rest. Reading thru 200 pages several times double checking for missed mistakes πŸ˜‚ whole new appreciation for this process but I’m a little bit obsessed and am making good to my vow to complete the publishing of the whole series thru volume 6 by the time Jupiter leaves Gemini. The chart for this one is amazing too.

We must plant seeds at the right time for them to bear fractal fruit of beauty: I have lived my entire adult life with the astromythographical mirror of magic at my side, what an amazing gift we have at our disposal of we only learn the Languages of Life and Light🌟πŸ”₯🌟 Aquarius Electrical Impulse of Light and Awareness Opposed Leo Fiery FireLight of Warmth and Action and HeartBlood.

My north and south node are Leo/Aqaurius exact conjunct my MC/IC axis. To bridge the Heart and the Mind………as my Mercury ( communication/mental processing:language/writing/expression) sits exactly atop my Ascendent (Scorpio….the Psyche,deep insight/penetration/life death sex mysteries of existence, the deep dark of descent) and opposing Chiron( the wound, the gift we bring forth from that wound, the antenna, the area of healing the existential drama) that sits on my descendent in Taurus ( the body, the senses, Form, the roots, the inner values and substance of our being, the flesh). The modern rulers of those four signs are exactly conjunct….Sun/Uranus in Scorpio first house, and Pluto/Venus in Libra 12th house. Mercury straddled between the two. The psychopomp that travels between the UnFormed(12th underworld/unBeing) and the Formed(1st Self/Being). The Jester, the trickster in the liminal space. The Fool must come Full Circle around the circle of the zodiacal wheel..::earning its degrees by the decree that Life Must learn to Feel the Real.

Yes the fixed cross
I am fixed to the cross
Bearing
The weight
Of tearing fate
From the forms I create
As a testament
To Destiny…
Alchemy…..
Burning the dross
To make way
For the best of Me

I Own it All

( sneaky picture my college roommate took while I was passed out In My bed 1998)

I Own it All….
It was bought ensouled
It was brought from lead
Right into gold
As I smashed walls
Between
Me
And the bed I made
To make
A soul.

I Own it all….
I own the Apple
And the Fall
I byte the Core
And Process the raw
Datum
Flung from the
Stratum that Spells
Out Laws
As cause and effect
Erects A wall
Between
Me
And the Dream
I made
To make
A soul.

I Own it All.

CLJ 2-10-25

The Voices Captivate Me

The voices captivate me
Elevate me
Even try to concentrate me
But they can't endure
This mind is pure
Eternal door of the nothing more

My third eye is on fire
Opening higher and higher
Til even my mind
Is the liar
And now I don't know
Who to believe
I smile though while I know
I am being deceived

They try to talk to me
Preach to me
Thinking they make sense to me
But their mind is on the Green
A viral sickness
Caught in-between
The here and the there
Don't they know the Here is There?
It doesn't matter where

They run from life
They run from death
What else is left?
Some in-between?
A placenta sunbeam
Orange sherbert ice cream
For the healthy daydream?
A prism of nothing's and somethings
That don't mean a thing
'Cept the words that define them
Contain them
Like an ass caught in denim
Blue Genes to split your seams
It's all a three-ring
Circus full of shiny things
To make the eyes squeam
Feign
Sell their souls for the American Dream
Dripping like ice scream
From the high beam
Of the American side-street

The Freak show
comes and goes
They can't say No
They get disgusted but they still go
'Cause their afraid to see
What their own lives mean
Chasing the Green
They do a double take
When they see me
They're afraid to Be
What they want to be
And won't admit
They don't like what they see
When they open the Screen
To the in-between.

Charleen Johnston
11 -13-1999

Linguistic Trickster volume 1!!!

I am super excited to see my first volume in print! It is available in Amazon:

https://a.co/d/a7b7h4r

Volume 2 available soon. These are retrospectives working backwards and will eventually encompass all the way back to 1996, an astropsychographical adventure awaits the completion of this project. This had to be finished before I could move on to the task at hand πŸ™‚

The strangest thing is….

The strangest thing is,
how quickly
one part of the herd
attempts to silence another part
of the herd,
as soon as that part of the herd
attempts to understand something
from another perspective.

It's knee-jerk....
It's almost malicious,
almost like a dopamine kick ....

The moment a person questions
'what they are told' ... ( regardless
of their exact question
or their current standpoint)...
This flock of vehement vultures
descend
to rip the tatters of flesh
from the face
of the Issue At Hand....
Demanding
the Insolent Questioner to crawl back
into the warm comfort
of their ConsciousnessControlledCave....
So the Virulent InterNet InQuisition
can ImPart the imPosition
of the Accepted Ideas and Ideologies
and keep the Chaos of Confusion
Safe in its Cozy Little Cage,
where Curiosity
has been Castrated and Laid
to Rest.

Actually it's not so strange,
the Range of most Herds
is preArranged
by the Gates and the Shepherds
that Lie in Wait....

The Irony that so many get terribly
Defensive
when they are called the Herd,
in relation to Words that Infer
a Reality at Variance
from what is Preferred
by their Neurological DisPosition.....
And yet
their Insistence that 'Herd Immunity'
is a Resistance against disEase ,
justifying Injection
of Conjecture
that threaten the Whole Structure.....
in that case the Self Implied Herd
TagLine
can be used
without assumed Abuse
of their Intelligence.

It's a strange Paradox
this Game we are Playing,
the only Dragon worth slaying
is the one who guards the Gates
to the Way In,
to the Way to open the I's and Thines
and Mysteries of Time.
The Polarized Embrace
of the Mystic and Mime
encases the great Race through
this MindField,
the maze of days that chaos craves,
the fertile ground above the Graves
that give rise
to Forms
of Future
Players and slaves to systems
and games of hide and Seek
with Hands and Feet Tied
to cycles
that build to climb
their way out,
by going inside......

It's strange.....
Indeed....
The herd.
Grazing and awaiting....
kept in check.Mating.
Dismayed by Waves in the Field,
that make blank the Yield of perceptions
of Real Living,
while the Wild Raw Primal Claws
of the Untamed Soul
watches beyond the forest knoll,
never safe
from the Perils of Life,
but Alive
in the Senses
and unpenned in the Fences
of the farmers safe spaces....

The Wilderness of Wonder
can only survive inside the hide
and skin
of the kin
of the wide open skies,
and the unfettered forests of an
Uncaptured Mind.

4-6-20